Work makes me want to drink

Do you ever just have one of those days that lasts and lasts?? Mine has been going for hmmm about 5 months now. I am trying (everyday) to have a good day at work, stay focused, be productive, ignore all the high school fluff attitudes and have fun at work like I used to. Well I guess I'm going about it all wrong, I got spoken to today about "socializing too much". Ummm excuse me!??!?! I spent the entire day going back and forth between co-workers cubicles to get a.) input/thoughts on a proposed change, b.) gather information that they possessed and I needed, c.) reminding/getting them to do the items I needed them to do (so I could do my job) and d.) collaborating with them (co-workers) on projects in progress and daily duties. Not once during my day was I just standing around chit chatting aimlessly about life. Mind you I have been putting in an average of 2 hours of overtime (UNPAID) everyday for the past 6 weeks just to try and keep things caught up, we are currently short staffed due to a "termination" so I know I'm stressed and what not but arg!!!

This "talking to" irritates the bejeezes out me because there is another co-worker who spends hours a day on the phone with friends and family - and I get talked to because instead of emailing the person on the other side of the wall I chose to get up and talk to them!! Get real, I'm so ready to leave....I never thought that after 10 years of working there I would be tempted so many times to just walk out the door and never return.

Starting Monday (I'm at a training all day tomorrow) I am just going to start walking away from things - I'm not going to stay late (unless I REALLY have to), I'm not going to worry about things getting down, I'm just going to come in do what I need to do and go home. I'm done putting so much energy into something that is just sucking the lifeblood out of me. I ordered an external drive so that I can begin to move anything that I've put on my work computer that would be distracting to a work environment (any music files, pictures etc) and I'm starting to ween myself away from that place - after all these years I no longer love my job like I used to - it saddens me greatly.