Beautiful

Just Beautiful

OMG Shoes!

Yea so I went to the eye doctors today after work - all is good, cyst is smaller, keep putting goop in eye oh and before you paid $150 for your contacts last month they should have told you that you needed a follow up appointment before you ordered again. ARG!!!!!!!!!!!

But a lovely thing did happen as I left (grumbling under my breath) there was a shoe sale at not one but THREE stores in the plaza nearby....OMG SHOES! I found the most awesome pair of Madden Girl shoes...I love love love them!

Toast to a new budget

Urg still sick but with antibiotics now, I should be fine before I fly on Friday.

Today was payday and the start of a different way of budgeting, lets see if this one works out. Money has a way of slipping through my fingers and really there is no good reason for that. I'm determined to get a handle on this!

But as I am still sick, I'm going to take my evening meds and head off to bed...I'm so exhausted.

Sick!

Well this sucks. I am sick, I think its just a head cold but I am currently so stuffy I'm exhausted from breathing. I'm heading off to take some NyQuil and nap. If tomorrow I'm not better, I'm hitting up the doc's, I do not want to fly with a head cold - ICK.

Plus side - Friday I dyed my hair Violet Red - its awesome I love love love it !


Alright me, my Kleenex and Vick's vapor rub are all heading off to sleepy land. more chats later.

Work makes me want to drink

Do you ever just have one of those days that lasts and lasts?? Mine has been going for hmmm about 5 months now. I am trying (everyday) to have a good day at work, stay focused, be productive, ignore all the high school fluff attitudes and have fun at work like I used to. Well I guess I'm going about it all wrong, I got spoken to today about "socializing too much". Ummm excuse me!??!?! I spent the entire day going back and forth between co-workers cubicles to get a.) input/thoughts on a proposed change, b.) gather information that they possessed and I needed, c.) reminding/getting them to do the items I needed them to do (so I could do my job) and d.) collaborating with them (co-workers) on projects in progress and daily duties. Not once during my day was I just standing around chit chatting aimlessly about life. Mind you I have been putting in an average of 2 hours of overtime (UNPAID) everyday for the past 6 weeks just to try and keep things caught up, we are currently short staffed due to a "termination" so I know I'm stressed and what not but arg!!!

This "talking to" irritates the bejeezes out me because there is another co-worker who spends hours a day on the phone with friends and family - and I get talked to because instead of emailing the person on the other side of the wall I chose to get up and talk to them!! Get real, I'm so ready to leave....I never thought that after 10 years of working there I would be tempted so many times to just walk out the door and never return.

Starting Monday (I'm at a training all day tomorrow) I am just going to start walking away from things - I'm not going to stay late (unless I REALLY have to), I'm not going to worry about things getting down, I'm just going to come in do what I need to do and go home. I'm done putting so much energy into something that is just sucking the lifeblood out of me. I ordered an external drive so that I can begin to move anything that I've put on my work computer that would be distracting to a work environment (any music files, pictures etc) and I'm starting to ween myself away from that place - after all these years I no longer love my job like I used to - it saddens me greatly.

Lazy Weekend

Hrmph its already Sunday and I've practically done nothing but read. I stopped by the library to return a couple of late books Friday and ended up picking up some more to read....I finished them last night. So yea nothing got done around the house yet...I still need to do laundry, dishes, vacuum etc etc...and what am I doing...being lazy on the computer browsing the web. Man I need to get my act together, I need to get myself motivated in life again...

Plus side I did sell a couple more books on Half.com...I've got them packaged so I'm forcing myself to get out of my lazy bum clothes take a shower and hit up the USPS to drop them off for shipping Monday. Thought is since I'll be out I can hit up the store to return the remaining bottles I found in the garage, pick up stuff to send to the Hubby for a morale boost (and a couple of things for a friend of his that is going through a tough time), get the packing tape & white out I've been saying I'm going to pick up for the past 6 days.

Oh and I talked myself out of a late night Taco Schmell run last night - woot!

Time flies

Seems like time is just flying , its already August for Pete's sake!
Which means I am not doing as well as I had hoped on the budget or weight loss frontiers. I'm getting ready to run up to the grocery store tonight to return some pop bottles and pick up the basics (milk, bread, lunch meat) - I'm going to do my darnedest to stick to my list. Plus I sold a book on half.com , I need to get to the post office to ship off a gift, a sold book and a card to my best friend in Denmark :-)

Wish me luck that I don't get caught in a thunderstorm at the store!

Car payment gone!

Just sent the final payment in for the car - woot! One more debt knocked off and now that money can be snowballed at another payoff goal woohoo!

I'm going to be an Aunt!

WOoooooooooooooooooo

My sister and her husband told me the good news this afternoon - they've got a bun in the oven *grins*

I'm so happy for them, they have been trying for a couple of years now. I'm partly jealous since Hubby and I have been trying for a year now but I'm also weary, what if I get pregnant this year too - will that take away the specialness if both sisters are preggo?

I don't want to take away anything special from my sister but they (my family) knew that we were trying and have been to several doctor appointments so I don't think it would be an issue.... I guess only time will tell.

Is it the weekend yet?

Arg it's only Thursday and I'm already dead tired. And I'm aggravated, I'm up by like 3.5 pounds - - I've been doing good and eating pretty clean ( I did have a bliss chocolate the other day). But I'm staying optimistic, I'm going to continue on my journey and not get discouraged. Tonight is gym night, my leg muscles are a bit sore so I'll tone back my workout a bit so I don't injure myself. Then its laundry laundry laundry! I will get everything caught up and put away, I don't always get it from being folded to put away. That is my goal for August, keep up the basic house chores.

Gym

I actually got my butt into the gym last night. I did 45 minutes on the treadmill, I debated between cardio and strength training. Decision was cardio since its been about 9 weeks since I've worked out regularly - I don't want to over due it and hurt myself. I'm serious about dropping some weight here and to do so I need to do slow and progressive. Tonight after work I had planned on mowing the lawn (push mower, 300' deep lot) but I think the thunderstorms may having me heading to the gym again instead *sigh*.

On side note, I need to make some good playlists for my Ipod. I don't have any, and I really need a good workout playlist - to get me going. Last night my Ipod would play a semi fast song then go into three slow songs which really threw off my pace.

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

I hate IndyMac. I just spent 55 minutes of my life going back and forth with them, basically I'm behind on my mortgage (yes I know I'm sending them money, whatever money I can) but since my budget is just too severe they can't help me. They will not or can not do anything at all (even just stop the late fees like I asked). What the hell kind of sense does that make!!?? Here I am sending them what I can when I can but they can't help me!! Its not like I'm not sending any money for Pete's sake!!! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR they make me so angry. When I ask to speak with a manager or someone higher up they (Vick Rep# 50M) just tells me they'll tell you the same thing, I need to let this call go - well Vick I didn't ask you what they would say I asked to speak with someone higher then you- this goes back and forth for like 5 minutes, then he puts me on hold for a minute and then comes back and says "he says there is nothing we can do for you" So I ask for "his" name and rep #, Vick won't say and then hangs up on me. Call back IndyMac customer service and get a lovely recording that they can not take my call because of call volume - well you know what with Assholes Like Vick I wonder why their call volume is so high!

Motivation

I need to kick my self into action! I need to lose weight, major. I have gained back so much weight in the past year it is ridiculous. My all time low was like 180 - size 12 and I was still losing - then they found endometriosis and I had to have surgery and medication. Both of which sidelined my exercise plan ( i was doing really well going to the gym) and I'll admit I let it get to me and sabotaged my own eating. Now I'm really struggling to get back on track.....I need to figure out why. I am so much happier with less weight on my body so why do I continue to sabotage myself?

I've updated my blog with a list of some of the blogs I read, I found most of them while searching for support in budgeting. Not my strongest point, budgeting, but I am a work in progress and some of these blogs have really helped me out

I really need to get some sleep, I have a long day ahead of me tomorrow - in early and training session all day - then doctor's appointment at 6pm for this stupid sty that I've had for um... 4 months now, again procrastination bites me in the ass.

68 days and counting

My husband has been gone away at training for 68 days now; which really in the big scheme of things is not so horrible. I mean he is still stateside, not in the middle east anywhere where he is in danger, so why am I so blah? I think its because I'm left here, in limbo. A little history, my husband and I met online (hence the Blog name, his gamer tag & mine - and no really it's pronounced NEEVE). To make a long story short we started talking online (in game, instant messenger & email) then on the phone every night. I had just ended a pretty serious relationship and I was cautious but something just felt right so one night I asked him to come out for my birthday; he did and stayed, here for me. Best spontaneous thing I've ever done.

He's from the east coast, he had just gotten out of the Navy when we met and was actually toying with the idea of joining the Army but he didn't because of me. He had been married before and it really didn't survive military life (other reasons as well of course but the separation didn't help). So he sacrificed his dream to try living mine. Needless to say he was happy but not really - he really missed military life but for some reason I don't think he really believed me when I said I just wanted him to be happy - whatever he chose to do as a career, I was willing to give it a try - I mean how can say I don't like it , if I've never tried?

Fast forward five years from him first flying out here , many job interviews, college etc and he still just wasn't happy. We were watching TV one night and out of the blue I told him one night "My only request is that if you chose to enlist again, is that we get married, I will not accept information about you second hand." He said OK.

November 2006 I got a ring and a proposal, December 2006 we told our families we were engaged and then I procrastinated about planning....I really don't know why but I did. Then suddenly everything felt right and I planned our wedding in two weeks (there's that crazy spontaneity again) we were married September 2nd 2007. January 2008 he decided to start gathering information about joining the military again; not sure if he would go Navy again, Coast Guard or Army - I told him whatever he wanted - we would make it work.

February 2008 (spontaneity strikes again) he chose Army, delayed entry since he was in the middle of college semester and May 20th I officially became an Army Wife. I know we will be moving - where only Uncle Sam knows, when again Uncle Sam knows and I think that is why I'm blah.

I do like to plan to a certain degree and other things I just fly by the seat of my pants. The planning part comes in on things like bills, budget, home. I'm a nester. I like having a home and making it my own - I'm interested to see what that is like in the Army. I also think I'm partially scared this will be the first time I've ever moved out of state; as much as this excites me it also makes me nervous - how will I really do without my family around me? I hope I do better then the doubts in my head, I hope I succeed in being a decent Army wife but all I can do is believe in myself and my husband; there I have no problems. I know my husband has my back and I have his so I just need to stop thinking and start doing - he is my home.

Nie

Howdy

So I've been kicking around the idea of blogging for a few years now; yea I know I'm a procrastinator. I've never really thought I'd have much for the blogging world, you know what would I contribute? Tonight though, for some reason, I've decided what the hell I should do it - make it an electronic diary - one that maybe will talk back (reader comments, if I get any ;). Here I am blogging world!

*hugs*
Nie